Friday, September 09, 2005
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I wasn't really hurt,
I feel no pain,
It's just that I've some dirt
In the corner of my eye...
This time
I'm not going to cry,
This time
I'm going to forget you,
This time
(I won't even say your name)
But I know that I will cry
And I know I can't forget
And I'll hold your name
So softly in my heart...
Monday, September 05, 2005
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back 2 blog again... these few days i've been busy and i juz dun feel lyk blogging... but here i am, with a new post... sighX, tml's SL camp, dun feel lyk going... cos all the high elements all done b4 liao... 2 days 1 nite man... lucky winston's in my group, or else i would be bored lyk crazy... haha, i've not packed my stuff, later i'd better go do it... wah, tml report at 7.30am, juz for oral... sigh, b4 camp got oral, it's lyk, sad lahx... i dunno wad 2 study and i dun feel lyk studying for it... hope i do well...
yesterdae was lyk quite normal... i went for chinese tuition in the morning, then went for my A. Maths tuition... woke up at 7.45am, so tired... then went 2 meet my mother at national library... saw nicholas and hew wai there (they said they were doing hw, i dunno)... yeah, then around 5 i went to pasir ris beach... i felt lyk having some time alone, to think... i sat at the rocks by the sea, the wind was lyk playing wif my hair, it was real cool... i sat there, alone, and thought bout alot of stuff... sigh, so many things were going through my mind... i'm juz so mixed up... am i ok? wad's happening to me? my actions, why are they lyk tt? why is my mind being hit with unpleasant thoughts over and over again? why is it tt i hav this hunch? is wad i'm thinking really worth it? everything i see, it seems to pile up, i fear it's going to end... why is everything lyk tt? wad am i doing? i fear tt i may turn into, something else... something not me... pressure seems to come frm all angles... sighx... why r ur words always in this manner? who are you? i thought bout alot of things while sitting there... i was there till bout 7... the sun had set already... i stood up, took a last look at the sea, and began the long walk home...
