my thoughts, deep and shallow.

:)

2011-09-07T22:23:00.002+08:00

jiajun teo of the past.

i would love to meet you someday, to see how much i have grown, and yet stayed the same. :)

it's time.

2007-06-20T20:25:00.000+08:00

my blogskin's so old.
i think i need a new one.
but can't seem to find nice ones.
sigh.
just have to keep looking.

please... dun...

2006-11-27T16:29:00.000+08:00

it aches so much
it hurts so much
please
dun do this to me
my heart's getting empty
i'm feeling cold
i feel like breaking down
but i dun have the strength to
i can't face it
please
dun turn me into an empty shell
with not a little bit of warmth that resides in me

sigh...

2006-08-16T18:57:00.000+08:00

this wasn't what we're looking for
is it reality, or is it just a fantasy?

you really hurt me, you really do
stressed you are, yet friends you go to
what am i to you?

everytime i wait for you eagerly
you chase me away, leaving me lonely
when you're angry, i tried to care
yet you show attitude to me, leaving me in despair
when you're sad, i tried to cheer you up
but you go to your friends and ignore me like muck

you hurt me, you really do
but i love you, that's why my love continues
you always say that we needed to talk more
but where were you all the time? am i a bore?

i was always there for you, will and always be
but were you there for me, when i needed you truly?
but it's ok, it doesn't matter
'cause it's all about you, not the latter

and thus, i'm left in the shadows of your alley
will you be there to pick me up from the dark valley?
so why go into a relationship and treat me like this?
i'd rather we remain friends and give it a miss

sigh...

my dear, my love for you, money can't buy
but your love for me, is it a lie?
my feelings for you, it's true
but will you ever leave me out in the blue?

a SaD sToRy...

2005-10-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

"There she is," pointed out Jack, a friend of mine.

"Where? I can't see," I replied.

"Are you blind? The girl in pink, can you see her?" Jack said.

Then I saw her up close for the first time in my life. She was beautiful, like an angel from the heavens. Her long brown hair shone in the light of the sun. Her features were perfect; a beautifully shaped face, a straight nose, big round eyes that seemed to emit warmth, and lips so well-shaped you just feel like kissing her. Her skin was flawless, smooth, like a baby's. Her name was one that you would never forget: Jane Banks.

Jane had recently been transferred to our school. She had just moved as her previous school was too far from her new home. Thus, she transferred to our school as it was just a five-minute walk from her house. When I saw her, I experienced a funny feeling in my stomach that I had never felt before. That was when I discovered that I was in love, for the first time.

I decided to try and win Jane's heart. I chatted with her, asked her whether she had problems that I could help her with, gave her gifts every now and then and soon, she began to confide in me. She told me how hard it was for her to leave her previous school, how scared she was when she arrived at our school and how her parents would quarrel at times. After a period of time, Jane and I grew very close to each other.

One day, Jane came up to me. She was shy and dared not look at me in the eye. I was curious as to why she was behaving like that until I heard her say something that I would always remember.

"John, I think I've fallen for you," she said shyly, her cheeks gradually turning red. I was stunned. That day that I had been hoping for had finally come. Jane Banks, the girl of my dreams, had fallen for me! I replied, "Well actually, I have liked you for a long time, but I was too shy to admit it. But now, I'm just so happy."

From that day onwards, our relationship blossomed. I did everything I could for her and whenever I was feeling down, she would always be there for me. Sometimes, we would whisper words of affection to each other, each time looking at one another in the eye. In my mind, I thought we were the perfect couple.

One rainy Friday, I waited for Jane outside her house as we were going to walk to school together. However, after waiting for a long time, I began to worry as Jane had not appeared. Instead, her mother came out to meet me, her face sombre.

I asked Jane's mother where Jane was. She replied sadly, as if she was trying very hard to hold back her tears, "Yesterday, Jane went to a gift shop to get a present for you. On the way home, she was crossing the road, unaware of an approaching car. The car was speeding at eighty kilometres per hour. Only the present escaped without any damage."

I was shocked. Jane had been abruptly taken out of my life. It was as if the devil had come and just snatched her away from me. Jane's mother gave me the present which Jane was going to give me. I broke down and kept crying, my grief beyond words. It was a heart made out of glass with a boy and a girl on each side. On the heart were engraved the words, "John and Jane, Forever."

Written by Teo Jia Jun on 11/4/05

tHiS TiMe...

2005-09-09T18:28:00.000+08:00

I wasn't really hurt,
I feel no pain,
It's just that I've some dirt
In the corner of my eye...

This time
I'm not going to cry,
This time
I'm going to forget you,
This time
(I won't even say your name)

But I know that I will cry
And I know I can't forget
And I'll hold your name
So softly in my heart...

StArS, sHiNe oN...

2005-09-05T18:43:00.000+08:00

back 2 blog again... these few days i've been busy and i juz dun feel lyk blogging... but here i am, with a new post... sighX, tml's SL camp, dun feel lyk going... cos all the high elements all done b4 liao... 2 days 1 nite man... lucky winston's in my group, or else i would be bored lyk crazy... haha, i've not packed my stuff, later i'd better go do it... wah, tml report at 7.30am, juz for oral... sigh, b4 camp got oral, it's lyk, sad lahx... i dunno wad 2 study and i dun feel lyk studying for it... hope i do well...

yesterdae was lyk quite normal... i went for chinese tuition in the morning, then went for my A. Maths tuition... woke up at 7.45am, so tired... then went 2 meet my mother at national library... saw nicholas and hew wai there (they said they were doing hw, i dunno)... yeah, then around 5 i went to pasir ris beach... i felt lyk having some time alone, to think... i sat at the rocks by the sea, the wind was lyk playing wif my hair, it was real cool... i sat there, alone, and thought bout alot of stuff... sigh, so many things were going through my mind... i'm juz so mixed up... am i ok? wad's happening to me? my actions, why are they lyk tt? why is my mind being hit with unpleasant thoughts over and over again? why is it tt i hav this hunch? is wad i'm thinking really worth it? everything i see, it seems to pile up, i fear it's going to end... why is everything lyk tt? wad am i doing? i fear tt i may turn into, something else... something not me... pressure seems to come frm all angles... sighx... why r ur words always in this manner? who are you? i thought bout alot of things while sitting there... i was there till bout 7... the sun had set already... i stood up, took a last look at the sea, and began the long walk home...

a FeW mOrE dAyS...

2005-08-07T11:16:00.000+08:00

yo dudes, i'm back... well, yesterdae, i went for some sports leader stuff... i had to reach sch by 7, which is lyk so early... about 17 sports leaders went to yio chu kang stadium to help out with the disabled pple's sports day... ms cai accompanied us, then she gotta go off early cos she got other stuff... and the whole thing started around nine plus! and i woke up at 5.45am! wah, i tell u... anyway, we didn't do much there, juz helped to move the starting blocks... if the participants wanted the starting blocks, we move it for them... if they dun want, we shift it aside... it was tt simpLe... and the sun was blazing... terrible, i felt so heaty, better go drink Jia Jia Liang Teh... LoLx, anyway, the whole thing ended around 1 plus... quite early... yea, then dominic began asking pple to watch a bollywood movie at bedok... haha, in the end, dominic, faris, kenneth lim, khairuddin and i went to watch a bollywood movie... it was quite nice, more lyk a romance story... luckily there were english subtitles, otherwise i wouldn't have understood a thing... LoLx, faris fell asleep halfway, and i went to sit beside dom... we made silly comments and laughed lyk siao... haha... after the movie, i had to go to tampines st. 11 to cut my hair... i took a train wif khai and dom... dom alighted at simei, cos he had to go 2 expo to meet his mama...khai and i alighted at simei too, cos we decided to try walking to tampines... hAhAx, and she saw us! i was surprised tt she was at eastpoint... haha, she asked me whether i was at eastpoint, so i was surprised... yea... then i chatted wif her one the phone for a while... she said she was at eastpoint, cos she was bored at home... she also wanted to use the popular $10 voucher... hahaha, she was with her mother... yea, we had a nice little chat... it brightened up my day... yuppers, it really did... haha, her voice's always lyk, kinda makes me cheerful whenever i hear it... yeah... well, tt's about it, catch ya around! ;)

^~*_>MiSsiN hEr LoTs<_*~^

VaLeNtiNe WaS hErE...

2005-07-29T18:12:00.000+08:00

hey pple, back 2 bLog again... recently i thought of a new name for myself... i find it kinda cooLx... yeah... name's Valentine, Ace Valentine... i lyk tt name! Valentine was inspired by Resident Evil 2, frm the gal called Jill Valentine... i lyk the laz name Valentine, it sounds cool and romantic... haha... Ace's a name which i've been admiring for a long time... it's such a uNique name... add Valentine and u get a real neat name... yuppers, hAhAx...

well, 2dae was pretty simple... PE was kinda boring, we were learning how 2 play softball in a modified manner (there was no bats, and we used volleyballs and footballs)... it was kinda funny; pple kept hitting the ball in the wrong direction and the fielders not knowing where to throw the ball... haha, an example of a blur fielder's dominic... LoLx... ms woo didn't come to class 2dae, we did a class exercise... Q2 was lyk story-telling, there was no question at all, juz a lot of info only... wahahaha... after sch, dominic, kenneth lim and I went to downtown kfc to eat... and i tell u, something happened there tt realli disgusted and "traumatised" me... i had finished my zinger meal, only left the drink (root beer, yum yum)... and i was drinking and chatting wif kenneth lim and dominic... guess wad happened? i drank till the cup was half-filled, and I SAW A DEAD BEE IN IT! oh my gosh... i can tell it was a bee cos its abdomen was kinda hairy, LoLz... i immediately spat out all the root beer tt was in my mouth... tt was absolutely not cooLx... it realli spoiled my appetite... dominic asked the guy to change a new one for me, but i only drank a bit, i was too disgusted... tt was a very unpleasant experience man... imagine drinking till half-full and finding a bee in ur drink... oh well, tt's all i've 2 sae 2dae, better go finish my j-thing... caTcH ya aRounD! ;)

=^~*>tHiNkiN bOuT hEr<*~^=

yAwN...

2005-07-17T11:35:00.000+08:00

yO, back dudes... i actually wanted to blog on fri, but i had no time... well, fri's a pretty eventful day... hAhAx, PE lesson was a joke sia... mr raj told dominic, jin chuen, damian and i to go collect some equipment frm the PE store... then the rest of the class was warming up at the parade ground, facing the foyer... the 4 of us went towards the foyer, and dominic and damian started dancing... hahaha, then i follow them... the auntie was mopping the floor, and i danced and lost my footing, cos the floor was slippery... and whoop! i fell... i think it was more lyk a slide... LoLx sia...then the whole class started laughing... i joined in too, cos i find it kinda funny... wahahaha, tt was humourous sia... then after school, there was a match between 2E3 and 2E4 (both 2004)... 2E4 was short of pple, so i joined them, it was 8 a side... i became the keeper, and man, i tell u, keeping's not my forte... in the 1st half, we led by two goals, then 2E3 caught up and the 1st half ended 3-2, with 2E3 leading... 2E3's 3rd goal was my fault, dominic gave a long shot, but it was weak and could be easily saved... instead, i forgot i was the keeper and used my legs to try and trap the ball instead of my hands... tt was stupid, yeah... but in the end, 2E4 won, with a score of 5-4... khai scored 2 and haikal had a hat-trick... in the 2nd half, i switched with samuel to become a left-back, which i prefer... i didn't get much touches on the ball, cos i was bascially defending... i wanted to go forward, then help in attacking, but tt would leave the defense real weak, so i stayed back... haha, while i was keeping, there was a funny moment... i collected a loose ball, then tried to pump it upfield... i threw the ball in the air and missed kicking it... the ball went bouncing away... tt was scary, but i safely collected it b4 dominic (who was nearby) could pounce on it... haha, every1 was laughing, funny sia... mr dennis ended the match around the 70th min, he said it was because of bad weather... every1 started pleading with him and making funny excuses... young sing told mr dennis to give him a chance to lose weight, haikal tried to bribe mr dennis... wahahaha, damn funny sia... every1 was laughing and making funny excuses, but mr dennis was adamant... well, every1 was disappointed, but wad 2 do... i think there would be a re-match... oh well, tt's aLL i've to say... i've gotta go collect the 6th book frm popuLar, i pre-ordered it a few weeks ago, can't wait to get started on it... catch ya around dudes... ;)

=_^~*MiZziN hEr*~^_=

tHe ReTuRn oF MJ...

2005-07-12T18:31:00.000+08:00

wah, sum pple sae i nVr update blog 1... so here's a post to entertAin u aLL... LoLx... 2dae was quite a fun day... mS wOo didn't come 2dae, so we had to do some maths questions... i didn't do it, couldn't be bothered... hAhAx, plain lazy eh? chemistry was a funny lesson... benjamin was so funny, he made me and eugene tay laugh lyk siao... i think he has a problem sia, his antics r so ridiculous... hAhaX, he was washing his test-tube, then he accidentally knocked down the bottle of universal indicator... then he whined and it was lyk so funny, cos his voice and actions were so dumb... then he heated his tube of copper(2) oxide wif hydrochloric acid over the bunsen burner... he was sitting down, holding the boiling tube wif a wooden peg and heating it without a care in the world, and he was singing, "mary had a little lamb, little lamb..." wahahaha, then the wooden peg caught fire!!! LoLx sia, then he was still singing and heating the boiling tube (more lyk burning the tube and peg as the peg was already on fire)... eugene tay and i laugh lyk siao, then ben noticed us, then the boiling tube and burning peg, and gave a "Ah!!!" and looked at the burning peg holding the boiling tube!!! wahahaha, damn funNy sia!!! then i did some mixing wif all the chemicals in a test-tube... i put some carbonate, a few acids and alkalis and some other liquids i found... there was this orange liquid whereby i put into the mixture and the whole solution turned orange... it looked lyk orange soda, kinda cooLx... yeah... it was funny, 2dae's chemistry lesson... hole's antics and my mixing of chemicals realli made the lesson lively... then i think dominic put a glowing splint on damian's butt and damian's pants now has a black mark... jiabin and emelia had a suck-back, and eugene tay added some funny comments of his own... but basically it was ben hu maDe the lesson real fuNny... HaHax... then after sch 2dae, damian, dominic and i went to white sands to grab a bite... we went to swensens (they were having a students' offer, a main dish wif a drink and ice-cream, only for $9.90)... dominic saw a gal hu he thinks she's kinda hot and kept peeping at her... our ice-cream was lyk so small... dominic and damian told me bout benjamin's past, it was kinda surprising... yep, damian and some other pple r helping me wif something... yep yep, cos i can't judge it on my own... i'll definitely need lots of help on pitch and tune, i'm so afraid of going off-key... yeah, i hope to get in man... anyway, thnks man, to those pple hu r helping me, i'd really appreciate it... hAhAx, catch ya around duDes! ;)

=!_^...*->tHiNkiN bOuT hEr<-*...^_!=

i AsK u pOiNtLeSs qUeStiOnS...

2005-07-10T11:41:00.000+08:00

I ask you pointless questions
so you'll stand too close to me
and as I close my eyes and smell you
I enter my fantasy

Your hand reaches out so gently
and rests upon my lips
you trace the curves of my mouth
as I kiss your finger tips

I quietly close my eyes
to feel your breathe upon my face
as you urge your lips towards mine
my soul begins to ache

And as tender as a whisper
your tongue caresses mine
and the sweetness of our passion
is frozen motionless in time

As swiftly as it started
the fantasy fades away
as you answer my pointless question
you turn and walk away...

^_=*>tRuLy MiSsiN hEr<*=_^

sHuCkS...

2005-07-03T11:24:00.000+08:00

wad a bAd morning for me... i woke up at 8.30pm, and i've chineSe tuition at bugis at ninE! oh gosh, i rushed out, ate McDonald's for breakfast, and when i reached the tuition centre, it was 9.15am... dude, tt was not cOoLx... hAhAx, to make matters worse, it was the 1st lesson of the 2nd semester, so classrooms would change... and i went to the wrong classroom! LoLx, guess which class i went to? i went to a sec 2 express class! haha, it was stupid, i had to excuse myself and ask the teacher where was the sec 3 express classroom... ah, the humiliation of sitting among sec 2s... and the teacher told me the room number of a sec 3 higher chinese class! i went, and felt lyk a total joke... wAd is this man... i spent the remaining 1h wif the higher chinese students, and i didn't understand a single thing... LoLx, i only realised i was in a sec 3 higher chinese class 1/2 later, after i entered tt class... so i was thinking, "juz my luck, nvm, juz sit it out, dude..." siGhx... i'm so blur at times... hAhAx...

aNyway, i'm happy and proud for her... she passed her organ exam, i'm juz overjoyed... at least now she completed all the grades for organ... i'm so happy and proud for her... although she bluffed me at 1st, saying tt she failed... i was so shocked, and disappointed... then she said it was a lie tt she failed, and she juz felt lyk bluffing sum1... haha, i was realli fooled, but nvm, no negative thoughts, cos she passed! she did it, i believed she would... u noe something, on the day of her organ exam, i was so uptight and nervous... i juz dunno why, she's the 1 taking it, why am i so nervous? i juz kept hoping she would do well, hope tt she would not lose confidence, yeah... the whole afternoon i was thinking and thinking bout her... i believed she had the potential to do it, i juz hoped tt she would have enough confidence to do it tOo... aNyway, she passEd! i'm happy for her, realli dude...

!=^...>MiZziN hEr<...^=!

bLuE sKiEs...

2005-06-21T18:41:00.000+08:00

Gray skies all around.
Many lonely nights I've found
Minutes turn to hours and hours turn to years
As I sit around with my falling tears.

I try to talk but no one is there
All my feelings locked in a knot with no one to share.

Then one day as I walked around
With a group of people and my usual frown,
I noticed the sky had finally turned blue
For this was the day that I found you.

You pulled me into your world of delight
I stepped out of the darkness and into the light!
The roses were red and the leaves were green
I saw colors like I have never seen!

Now we have known each other for a while.
Even though you say I live in a world of denial.
But when I think about it I know it is true...
Baby, I have fallen in love with you!

^~_"=[MiSsiN hEr]="_~^

ViNdiCaTed...

2005-06-15T10:38:00.000+08:00

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye

And roped me in
So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing
I am captivated

{Chorus}
I am Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
I swear I knew it all along

And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intentions
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye

And rendered me
So isoloated, so motivated
I am certain now that

{Chorus}

So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away (3x)
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away (4x)

{Chorus}

Slight hope
It dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

^_"~[->MiZziN hEr<-]~"_^

aLoNe & uNkNoWn...

2005-06-13T15:49:00.000+08:00

Kneeling on the street,
In the pouring rain,
I want to leave this world,
Which has caused me so much pain.
I am surrounded by isolation,
All alone in the world.
I have so much desperation,
But nobody seems to notice.
People are passing by me,
But no one seems to be stopping.
They turn their heads and look at me,
But they continue walking.
As the rain drops run down my face,
Pouring into my mouth,
I taste the saltiness of my tears,
Mixed with the gentle flow of cool water.
As I hold my head up,
I shout into the sky,
"Someone please come help me!"
This is not how I want to die.
I am shouting as loud as I can,
But no one seems to hear.
I am holding out my hand,
But it remains empty.
This is my biggest fear.
The rain is getting harder now,
I can't even open my eyes,
Kneeling in the darkness,
Hoping someone will hear my cries.
My body is losing strength,
My voice is fading out,
My hand remains empty,
I am alone, without a doubt.
Will the rain ever stop?
Will the sky ever clear?
Will my hand remain empty?
This is my biggest fear...

=!_"~[->sTiLL tHiNkiN bOuT hEr<-]~"_!=

aH...

2005-05-26T16:03:00.000+08:00

wHew... finally hav the time 2 bLog again... i've so many things to write man... hMm, let's start wif fri (20/5/05), shall we?

well, on fri, i went to catch Star Wars Episode 3: Revenge Of The Sith... i watched it wif Arvind (cHoCoLaTe), De Wei (pOrNsTaR) and Kok Leng (LeGeNd)... i waited for kok leng and de wei for so long... summore i took a taxi to tampines mall... i called them at 3 and they were in the train towards tampines frm pasir ris!!! and the show starts at 2.50pm... their reason was tt they had 2 wait for arvind... and guess wad? when we went into the cinema, arvind was sitting down eating snacks... wow, de wei was mad while i was trying hard not to laugh (in case i disturb others)... hAhAx, the movie's pretty cool, i lyk the lightsabers, wish i could own one...poor anakin, he had too much fear of padme dying, thus he went over to the dark side... dArth siDious's pretty gruesome lookin... his face was all wrinkled and white, eWw... afTer the movie, i rushed to the town park at white sands to play soccer... dominic, winston, damian, me & jeffrey were one side... the opposing side consisted of eng mu, wee sheng, max, haikal, kee han and cheuk fei... they were pretty gd, haikal's dribbles created lots of problems for us... i was on form tt day, dunno wad had got into me... i assisted 3 goals, all by through passes... i dunno wad happened, it juz seems tt i stopped the ball, looked for an opening, then gave a short pass there... dominic recieved two of my passes and scored 2 goaLs... i forgot hu scored the 3rd one... then jeffrey went bonkers and ran out (he was the goalie)... the opposing side had a great chance 2 score... i suddenly went back and managed to block two shots... tt was close man...

on sat (21/5/05), i went wif my family to malaysia... we went to KL 1st, and visited chinatown and the petronas twin towers... chinatown's bustling wif acivities man... the air mata kucing (a type of drink) and hokkien mee was fabulous... the twin towers was so damn high, i felt a bit dizzy while rying to spot the highest point of the towers... at nite, my dad and I went to a pub to catch tHe FA Cup Final, Man Utd vs Arsenal... i was disappointed, man utd had so many chances, but they juz couldn't score... ferdinand's goal was ruled offside... wth man... i think the referee was biased, there were two clear handballs by arsenal players in the penalty area but the referee continued play... in the end, arsenal won, cos scholes missed his penalty... basket...

on sun (21/5/05), my family and checked out of our hotel at KL and proceededto genting highlands by bus... at genting, we checked into a hotel and put our things down... then, we went to the outdoor theme park... it was so cool man, i wanted 2 tRy so many thriLLing rides but my mother dun allow... wasTed... siGhX...

the nxt day, we checked out and went the KL Central Railway Station... we boarded the train and waited for the train to make its long ride back to s'pore... at Kluang station, the train stopped for very long, and it turned out tt there was a landslide... so we had to leave the train... we were lucky tt a villager spotted the landslide, otherwise the train i was boarding would hav been a disaster (for further details, read the newspapers, it's on the frontpage of The New Paper on 24/5/05)... we took a private car to the nearest bus terminal... there, we had so much difficulty hailing a cab tt we only got a cab after bout 2 hours... wHew, i thought we would be stuck in Malaysia for one more day... we reached singapore at bout 12 plus... i was so tired tt the nxt day i couldn't get up and nearly ws late for sch... siGhX... oh well, tt's all i've to say... cYa dUdEs! ;)

~_=">tHiNkiN bOuT hEr<"=_~

wHeW...

2005-05-14T13:45:00.000+08:00

wHew, finally, the exams r over... i finally hav time 2 updAte my bLog again... the exaMs were terrible man... it was driving me totally crazy... i was Lyk, so stressed... then sum papers were lyk, done so lousy... i'm so relieved it's all over... i bet she'll do well, she's smart... didn't say a lot of things 2 her, probably cos i'm shy... shucks, i hate my shyness at times...

now's the time to relax, sit back, chill out, yea man... i luv it... hope the teachers won't give too much hw for the holidays, or else the holidays won't be so fun anymore...

sometimes i find blogging kinda sianz... yea, it's lyk, u've got so many things to say, but u juz can't write it all out... then every now and then u gotta update ur blog... siGhx...

arRgH! why am i so shy? why do i always become so weak in front of her? y can't i act normal?? sighx... this is difficult indeed... i've gotta think... i've gotta think...

zZz...

2005-04-27T19:18:00.000+08:00

whew, i'm so tired... these few days i've got so little rest... i feel LyK not goin 2 sCh and juz sLeep at home... siGhx, anyway, i got a ZeN MiCrO yesterdae! it's so cool, my dad bought it for me... it ain't cheap, but it's worthed it... yea, i juz simply love it man...

look's lyk competition's catching up... he's givin it all he's got to win her... i muz plan and think... oh yeah... i love mind games... this thing has juz got more challenging... wif him trying to get her too, it's juz made things more interesting... but i mustn't get to complacent... win him is one thing, win her heart is another... i've gotta think... yea man... but he doesn't deserve her... no way man, she needs sum1 way way better than him... i may not even stand a chance, but it's ok, i juz want her to be happy wif whoeVa may be hers... it's her welfare tt i care bout... if she's hapPi, i'm too...yup yup, tt's love... but he won't stand a chance, no way dude... he can go fLy kite... hAhAx, but as for her, i hope she'll accept me lahx, but the more important thing is tt she be happy, enjoy life, yeah... ;)

yO wAsSuP?

2005-04-18T18:46:00.000+08:00

hey ppLe... i'm back... it's been an eventful weekend for mOi... i've finally got a chance to post this, i've been busy lately... well, let's start fRm saT, shall we?

basically, my class and i went for the final day of the orchid workshop... it was quite fun... we had to decorate a rotting log using orchids... i think we did a pretty gD job, probabLy better than the gaLs... =p hAhAx, then the boys kept posing for photos as Mr. Njoo and some frenS took soMe shots... gUan hua's one was funny, he made a James Bond pose and a macho pose... the way he did it was damn funny sia... then the boys posed together, and most of us were raising our hands high in the air... then damian, dominic, guan hua and me went to the girls's log, and pointed our middle fingers... then pple took photos of us pointing our middle fingers... it was kinda fun, yeah... then after the orchid thinGy, damian, dominic and i met winston along the way to white sands... then we went to TM... we ate at Pastamania, and we met geraldine, imran, roxane, david, etc... they were celebrating geraldine's birthdae... then dom and winston went to cut their hair at EC House... i had to go home halfway... oh well, tt's it for sat...

2dae we went back to sch... lessons as usual... lucky we didn't get much hw... otherwise i'll hav to burn midnite oiL... i enjoyed 2dae's assembly... Mr. Njoo gave a presentation on Earth Day, then showed the upper sec photos... it was nice... then came the photos of the orchid wrkshop, whereby 4e1 conducted it... my embarassing photo wif kesleen was shown, ahhh, the shame... hAhAx, the photos of us goin to the orchid workshop wre also shown... i appeared in a few, sum were nice, lyk the one i took wif damian adn dominic... 3e2's ones were also shown, i lyk weida's one, it had the NKF hotline, appealing pple to call tt hotline as weida's single and available... haha, tt was funny... benjamin's photo appeared, it was kinda funny, yea, it had the caption, "don't be indifferent"... haha, si cong looked so blur in all the photos... then came a slideshow of pics of saving the earth... there was a background music of "Heal The World" by MJ... i lyk tt song, it's one of my favs... it's meaningful and nice... MJ's voice is juz totally cooL, i wish i hav his voice... but alas, his moves are all tt i can learn... oh well, too bad... i better go now, or i'll be late for tuition... cYa dudeS! ;)

SiCk...

2005-04-14T18:42:00.000+08:00

siGhx, 2dae i nvr go sch sia... maybe even 2morro i wouldn't go sch too... i didn't noe my sickness could be so serious man... i went to see the doc yesterDae... he told me i had bronchitis... it's an infection of the airways to the lungs and will make a person keep coughing... he said i was lucky i had seen him, or else the disease would spread to my lungs, causing pneumonia... then i would hav to be hospitalised... wah, i didn't noe it could be so serious sia... siGhx, 2dae nvr go sch sia... wasted, got hw to do... then miss lessons... then all the while i was sleeping at home... not bad lahx, at least can get some well-deserved rest... now i feel refreshed... oh well, i end my post for 2dae here man... hope she's fine, happy, yea... i'm sick, but it's okie, cos i'm suffering, not her... if she's sick, then i'll be worried... ohweLL, cYa dudes... ;)

LiKe A rOsE...

2005-04-13T18:50:00.000+08:00

hey ppLe, i find this song real nice and meaningful... it's one of my favs... i feel it kinDa expresses my feeLings... here it is:

Like A Rose - A1

And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from God above
For me to love
To hold and idolise

And as I hold your body near
I'll see this month through to a year
And then forever on
'Til life is gone
I'll keep your loving near

And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you
There's something new
To keep our loving strong

I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
Of how you'll always be
Here next to me
To wipe away my tears

And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do is follow you
To lighten off my load

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

And though the seasons change
Our love remains the same
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
Just like a rose

You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

HiHi...

2005-04-12T18:24:00.000+08:00

yo ppLe... i'm back... i'm at khai's house, his house's pretty cool... it's a two-storey flat, near my grandparents' house... he has his own room, a personal pc, it's juz so cool dude... i wish my room could be something lyk hiS... anyway, yesterDae was kHai's birthdae... i got him a Roteiro, white wif bLack stripes... it's very nice, i lyk it... but nvm, since khai's such a gd fren of mine, i sacrifice sum of my money for his birthdae...
siGhX, still not ok... in fact, i think my coughing has becum worse... arrGh! wad can i do to get rid of this irritating cough?! i'm so piSsed...
i wonder how's my love life now... sometimes, i realli dunNo wad am i doin man... she's lyk, kinda impossible to woo... but nvm, patience... i muz wait... wait and wait... yea... anyway, i better go home now, it's kinda late... oh weLL, cya dudes! ;)

hEy...

2005-04-07T17:38:00.000+08:00

hey, back again, i'm now at hoLe's (benjamin) house... yeah, and he has 2 pc, and i think i'm using the lousier one... haHaX, but his house not bad lahx, quite spacious... sigh, another has gone lyk tt... 2morro's fridae, the eNd of tHe weEk, finaLLy... this week has been eventfuL, yea? 2morro i thought i can go home early, then i remembered, "eh, got sLc at bedok green pri lehx!" sigHx, but nvm, she's goin tOo... tt's a gd thiNg, haHaX... siGhX, sianZ, go homE, do hW, then sLeeP, then wake up sOoO earLy for sCh... so tiRed, sumMore i sick aHx... stiLL haven't recover, aRrGh!!! whEn wiLL i get betTer??? daMiaN didn't come to sch 2dae, muz be his sore eye again... poor thing sia, miss 3 days of scH... anyway, i quited choir already... it's kinda sAd, i'm sure gonna miss every1 there... i've hAd hapPi times in choir, but it's juz too stressfuL for mOi... i didn't do very weLL for my cOmmon tests... siGhx, now back to badminton... oh weLL, i stop here for 2dae, hope she's feeling alrite, yea... Cya guYs... ;)

SiGhX...

2005-04-06T18:20:00.000+08:00

weLL, i have been busy aLL week, only had the chance 2dae to post this... sigh, juz came back home only... i juz wanted to see the match between vbfc and kfc when it started to rain... sigh, i couldn't stay any longer as i was sick, dun wan my iLLness to get worse... so irritating, keep coughing non-stop, basket sia... then can't eat so many things, so terrible!!!

anywae, yesterday was SYF central judging for hSc chOir... i left class at 9.35am man, it's was so cool... then i went to hav a quick bite b4 goin back to the music room, where we had a roughly 20mins nap b4 we practised till 12 plus... wE then ate lunch and went to change into our suits (for boys)... our suit was not very nice, it was grey, i had expected black or sumthing more aPpeaLing... then we went to s'poRe conference hall and waited till it was our turn... i thought we did ok, our instructor also said it was alright, but juz too bad, we only had a silver... some gals cry, but wad 2 do? wad's done's done... i was a bit disappointed but nvm, it's over... guess we've to do better for the nxt SYF...

oh well, kinda difficult for me now, i'm wondering wad should i do... how does she feel... anyway, it doesn't really matter if she lyks me, cos all i want for her is to be happy, enjoy life, yeah... if she's happy, i'm happy... if she's sad, i'm always willing to listen to her problems... but if she dun lyk me, then wad can i do, u can't hav everything in life... i'll do all i can for her, yeah, i'll... oh well, i'll end 2dae's post her... got tuition now, cYa dudEs! ;)

Yo PpLe...

2005-03-31T19:39:00.000+08:00

hey pple, wassup man... i juz created my blog... brand new and fresh, will need guidance from those experienced pple out there... hAhA, well, my blog would be mostly bout my love life bahX, i think... haha, dunno lahx, i got so many feelings inside me, all bursting to be expressed out... oh well, i'll write in details nxt time, yEa? cYa dudes... ;)